Dead End?

February 22, 2014 1.12 am

     This very particular feeling seems to occur again. The one that I dread the most. The one that initiates the breakdown of my mentality.
     Today marks the fifth day of the new semester's beginning. Instead of being very energetic and excited, I feel so low-spirited and kind of...lost. After the whole hectic last semester came a long break which allowed me to think about what I've been through for the last five months. Frustratingly, I feel that I've learned a lot of stuff yet nothing at all. I really can't tell whether it's the failure of education in general or my own personal one.
     For now I can hide behind shiny numbers which embellish my transcript, but till when? What am I supposed to do now? I want to learn, but not in the way that they make me to. Those who said that college is all about freedom should re-examine their opinion. Freedom is none but limited. I have to take courses that I know will only waste my precious time, working hard for things that remain briefly in my brain. For what? Merely for another near perfect score. If all that I've achieved is represented by all these numbers, then something must be very wrong. But unluckily, who am I to fix it??